A journey of two lifetimes
THE CALM
BEFORE
THE STORM
- November 4th, 2015 -
Javea, SPAIN
4 days ago I woke up in the comfort of my old bed, at my parents' house.
4 days from now I’ll be on the other side of the world, living in a 4x4.
It’s a very small number for such big changes.
It feels strange not realizing that our journey begins in less than a week. Being back in Spain with my parents and having wrapped up my life in France, I feel like none of it is real. I feel safe, I don’t feel any of the nervousness or fear that I felt a month ago.
I am more than excited when I think about it, I’m also full of questions: what roads will we take? Will we overcome the challenges that come our way? Will we realize that there are commodities we cannot live without? I hope we will adapt to our new environment and feel good in doing so. I also hope we will be proud of who we are on the road, our choices and actions, and grow in ways that will positively change our lives.
Living in this social media driven society, I feel insecure, sad and disheartened about who I can be sometimes. Too often I find myself setting the wrong priorities, far from the person I aspire to be. I wish to get away from this superficial "picture-perfect" culture, to find where I stand - Do I want to share a picture for people to believe I'm having a great time, or pictures that show how a memory was, regardless of anyone's opinion? The line is thin, and sometimes I get lost in between. What I do know is, I want to have such a fulfilled life that I’ll have no need to prove anything to anyone because I simply won’t have the time.
So even if I don’t realize we’re leaving soon, I’m looking forward to be waiting in line for my backpack to be swallowed by the check-in belt. I can’t say I’ll never come back to Europe to work a 10h/day job again, but since quitting my life in France, my mind has been at peace and so has my heart.
- Sarah -